Well folks, yesterday was everything I wanted and more with regard to school. We went over the syllabus and I was excited to hear our instructor reiterate the subject matter for the semester, especially since I have already done a majority of the work. Menu development, restaurant theme/Mission Statement... I got this, sistah!
The fun was in coming home. The merging of two families is never seamless, and my situation is no different. Still grappling with a new relationship, marriage and child guardianship -- all within 9 months!! Add to that, having my lovelies home for the summer and blending the three ladies together with a new living situation... it's not pretty. I feel as if I'm being pulled 20 different ways, and no one is happy with part of me they get... nothing is enough, nothing is good enough. So, I sit here in this coffee house, wishing I could get on a plane and fly away. Where? Anywhere. It is in times like these that I realize how naive I really am.
I'm thinking at this point, it may be time to take a step back. Get myself a little studio in midtown, focus on school and the possibility of owning my own business. There are 7 days in a week... each daughter gets a day; Mom gets 1... that leaves me 3 days for school and myself. "Mommy-Daddy" relationship will have to be "suspended" until I finish school or visited between semester breaks. Sounds like a business... don't really like that. I'm very organic in the way I operate... this feels like scheduling and time constraints, which don't feel good to me... Oh, it will all work out. My daughters are very important to me. This I am clear on. Nothing means more... Heck, they are the reasons I have waited until this point in my life to go back to school... Don't they understand that?
WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!! <3 WE'RE ONLY A COUPLE BLOCKS AWAY!!!!
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